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Nothing is forever. How i wish this wasn't true. Each day come by and by. I finally realizing that I'm not a child anymore, and seeing the one I care and love walk a different path from me.
We were together for so long. It seems like nothing will change. But when everything was over, I knew it was going to be hard. I have to let them go. They grew up. They became adults. So they walking away with who they want to be with. This is their choice.
Stopping where everything ended. I saw all the good times behind me. Looking ahead, I never wanted to see what is there. I know there will be many lost, and pain. How can I able to live with that? I have lost all my strength in heart. I have lost the light in my soul. I have lost hope. Where is that push I need now? Will I able to find it? Will I just be lost in my own darkness?

What was once there, will always be there. That was memories are. We said that we will be friend till the end of life. But result, and seeing now. How can this be so? Showing the miss for one. Forgetting the other. Saying you miss, saying you are bored without her. It seem as if our friends for life can't survive till we meet again. Will one live, Will the other change, Will the other walk away alone? Who knows.....

I fear life will never be the same again. I fear the changes is greater than meeting new people, fear what others may think of you, Fear of growing up. Fear of dieing.

All is lost. All hope. All Joy. All laughs. All is lost.

Yet, Here I am putting a smile on.
To show what life can be
What joy we can have
Even if i think this negative way
Yet, I still want to say this. I may think, and be depress. But I love you guys so much. i will never put a frown for you. I'll keep on smiling. And will always say to live life.

Here I am. Creating this strength all over again. I put on a smile to see you smile. Why? Because your smile, your joy is my push, my light, my hope,.....My strength.