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I'm different and most people like that about me, but do I like that about myself? Does anyone like who they are? Well I don't like myself. Why am I even alive? I should be dead so why am I here? It hurts to live day after day, well it does for me anyway. I never wanted to live so why can't I just die, I want to die.

I mean I don't beleive in anything at all. Life is nuthing but pain, pain by those who lie to others, pain by those who should love their children, pain everywhere, pain in the heart, pain in life. So why do people want to have pain in their lives? I don't all I want is the pain to go away and well for me that can only happen if I die well thats my answer for myself, I don't know how anyone can live with pain in their life. I want everything to disappear, to go away. I want to disappear.

Their isn't anything in life worth this much pain no way in hell well I don't want to keep living with pain all around me.