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Forcing down a path of darkness
A pathin which I did not wish for this
The fear of the words you shout
The scars that they leave
Engraved into my mind
They claw at my sanity
The words that have been said
Never once a single sorry
One of these days
I'm going to kill myself
And I know you will not care.

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Okay let me explain the reasoning behind this:

Well it started with my dad bitching at me for grades. Well then he btches at me about more stuff and I just freak. SO yeah we got into an agruement and I told him 'I don't care what happens to em I'm going to die" "You're lucky I haven't killed myself yet!" "have you not seen the claw marks and red spots on my arms!" and he just stood there "Yeah but what am I suppose to do" "Tell me to stop or something! Don't you care!" and yeah. So I got pissed. My mom came downstairs and I didn't want to tell her the real reason why I was crying (yes Shadow was crying) and yeah but she's nice to me. She cares about me unlike my father.

You know people say they love my parents and that their cool. You know what my mom is but because of my dad they are in concuseling(sp) and he never notices a thing. He doesn't know or care when he makes someone cry. He is such an a**.

Maybe it's just me, maybe I did something I don't know. Maybe my life itself is the reason that they hate each other I don't know. Perhaps it owuld be better...for others sake if I really did die. Who knows...