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I always wonder...If i was ever going to fail in life.
Do something that hurts the people i care, and love for.
Something that hurt my dreams.

That dream that now seems to be far away.
seeing now they are falling apart infront of me.

You will think that i would work harder.
I tried, but the feelings in heart block everything i did
My heart wanted me to run away
but parted of it wanted me to stay
I didnt know what to do
So many things were happening

Ahead of me was my future
Somewhere in there was the one waiting for me
Every moment walking closer to the future
I feel like i need that one more and more

But i know the time when i fail is coming closer
And no one can slove it other than me

I'm a person who doesnt open their heart that easy
Someone who seem to turst
But not
Also a person who is always searching for something
Wants to know something
But doesnt know what, Other than the meaing of life

My view in everything always change
But what never will change is my life is coming closer to the end
Life went by so quick
Just a few years ago I was a little kid playing, and didnt care about a thing
Those days were gone, only left is me fearing things i wish that will not happen

I felt like my life will far at one moment
Losing everything
Leave tears to fall
Wanting to live on
but the pain and thought with no there by your side.

I try and try. But i cant get to the point i want to be at. Not to the point where i smile seeing other smile.

My love for my life seem to dissapper faster and faster....
Every drop....gone

All cause from the thought of failing on my dream and life.
-Jenny