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Song: The Middle...Jimmy Eat World...Everyone knows it...it makes me feel good, ha. Its been on repeat haha.

Anywhoo....I don't know where to start...

I think i really am allergic to gluten. I didn't take my meds last night and i slept through the whole night for the first time....in...months. Its really great. And i feel good which right there is great. Im still having horrible depression..But i think i can live with it for a bit. I'm hopefully going in for allergy tests either this upcoming week or next...Not sure. I hope tho. I think i can handle being gluten free for a while. I actually feel better so idk.

"Everything, everything will be just fine. Everything, everything will be alright."
I guess im living with that going through my head now days...I figure if i want things to be alright bad enough, they will be eventually. Or at least i hope so.

And i've also been thinking about Charlie...I guess he made me realise that i should think more about what is really best for myself and less about what i want...Idk..
...And i think im over him...Or thats what im going to keep telling myself. I HAVE to move on....No matter how perfect i thought he was...

I haven't had a weird a** attack in a few days...ANd they freak me out. It just feels like i can't think..I've had that type of thing before...but it was a little different..Now it feels like i want to...jab things into my arms and legs and i feel like my head is just going to explode some how...Its weird and really hard to explain actually...

[[sigh]] I'm slowly figuring things out with myself tho. But i do feel messed up beyond repair...And i can't even explain how...or why...

Gehhhhhh IM CONFUZZLED!

And out.......later.