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To start off..

1 no song. wow i know..
2 i don't want to hear any "get over yourself"s or "your pathetic"s. Seriously im fed up with that s**t.

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Okay so like...I have terrible depression. And yaknow how i usually mention the fact that i can't cry when i need to? Well apparently that's a symptom of bad depression. Great huh?
I cut myself with a razor for the first time today. Small cuts but about 30 or 40 of them...they don't hurt at first till about an hour later...and then it starts to hurt. Hah oh well.

Im just in a bad mood..in need of venting.

So my friend..call him Tom is super depressed lately and i just wish i could ******** help yaknow? I just i know how he feels..exactly and i can't help him at all. It pisses me off...Ugh

And this other guy (yes i know a lot of guys) Call him Brett he..ugh hes in love with a girl who is a stupid b***h and he wont realize that he needs to move on! I just wanna tell that b***h that she's a heartless b***h and she needs to be nicer to him. Stop being so ******** rude and hurtful...she has no clue what it does to him. It tears me apart to hear about it. I hate her so much and ive never talked to her...Shes just...UGH!

And right now im soooo behind in my school work..And idk if im going to be able to go to school next year. I can't focus at all. i have no motivation and im so depressed i just can't seem to do it. And im always irritated..Like all the time. its ******** annoying.....

I just don't know what to do to make myself happy anymore. Talking doesn't do much, guitar doesn't do anything, i just don't know....Im so upset with it....So done with it yaknow...i keep trying to be positive but then something else brings me down...ugh..