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I'd like to just step back every once in a while, expirence life through your eyes, and see truth in your words.
Shitty Day For ******** ME!!!
Tonight was a shitty night. I don't know what and how I feel so I wrote a poem. It's kind of like an empty feeling. like I want to cry over everything that has gone wrong in my life so far, and I want to cry because I hate feeling awkward even though I shouldn't, and I want to cry because everything just seems to keep getting worse for me. I keep seeing my friends, and each day I see them as people who ignore me. So screw my life.

Here it is:

A Slow Trip to Demise:

Don't be afraid,
Don't be worried,
I'm just tired of all this
s**t
and all the depression.


Please don't be scared ,
Don't be angry
This is just my trip to
demise.


Your eyes,
And smile,
And laugh, I miss
Much.
These eyes
I stare into arent yours,
and the way you used to look at me with,
I don't see.


This is my trip to
Demise and I
don't know why.


When I saw the flare,
I instantely died.
This
Empty feeling will never die.


When you turn to me,
I've felt like I lost
your eyes to the devil.

What the hell did she do to
make you like this?

I miss you,
in my trip to demise.

And I feel incomplete
and unworthy.


DAMN IT! WHAT DID SHE DO?!

What can I say
in my trip to demise,
you've changed the course,
and all I want now
is you.

But for some reason, this
empty feeling will
never cease.


I love you,
but you seemed too preoccupied.

Don't fret, in my heart,
I feel that you may have loved me
and might. I'm not sure.


Please don't be afraid.

I want you to be happy,
and I want to be with you.

It is all I honestly
want.


But for some reason,
this empty feeling will never cease
because I saw her ruin the night.

In my trip to demise,
In the soft trip to my demise,
I want to promise you,
I will never do what she did to you.


A slow trip to demise,
I feel death grip me,
like a guest univited,
but I know in my heart,
where the empty feeling feeds,
Somewhere deep down,
you may actually still see me too.

~Samantha Mikolajczak


No, it isn't applied to anyone. When I'm depressed, I can come up with some pretty good lines. I must say this may be one of the best poems I may have written on a day like today.

Comments much appreciated.


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  • User Comments: [2]
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    It's a really good poem, it honestly is. I'm not exactly sure what to say about it though. I mean, it seems like a combination of hate, sadness, and misery put into words. I'm not going to say that's a bad thing, considering you're a poet who writes about what she's feeling.

    And second, what happened anyway? Who made your day not-kickass? stressed


    comment NiteFish · Community Member · Sat Jan 17, 2009 @ 03:30pm
    D: Your goin through the same thing....I wrote a poem like ya said and since then i've felt a tad bit better. This'll sound odd but I think most writers (well me at least) have more inspiration and ideas and such when theyre depressed. o-o have you noticed that??
    Anyways, great way to get your emotions out!! *hugs* there there...im here for you. Lol. Loving it.

    comment Toga IV · Community Member · Sat Jan 17, 2009 @ 04:13pm
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