just a poem I wrote...Daemon and her depressing thoughts...enjoy...the blue is her, the red is Advent
What if someone asked you what you'd do if you only had a few months to live? What would you do? What would you say? When this question came upon me, it brought me to think...in the 200 or so years I've lived, I've never given death the slightest thought, knowing I am invunrable to it, but Advent...she knows she is going to die young...what must that be like? To live knowing your life will soon end when you're only nineteen-years-old. When I was nineteen I was worried about making sure I was beautiful and perfect, that was a very long time ago...when I was afraid of getting wrinkles...Advent has never even been loved, not by her brothers, she didn't even know her parents, and now she is to die? I've always had someone to turn to when I was in need, weather it was Leilou, Montagna...or even Sephiroth...I've always had someone even in death...I had someone by my side...
my guardians watch me closely, but at times their minds wander, and it gives me a chance to go into their thoughts...Sephiroth is worried about my health...he's thinking, "Should Advent be out in this kind of weather?" it makes me laugh, Daemon's thinking about death...she wonders if I am afriad of death...ever since I was five I knew I was going to die young...I was scared then...but now I've learned to live with it...now I walk hand in hand with fate and destiny, I am never alone...Battle is at my side, Paine's got my back covered, and my Guardians are good to me...I actually look forward to death, where I can meet my greater ancestors, and become reunited with old friends,
now that I think about it...death isn't that scary...it's actually thrilling, you create your own heaven or hill...it's like a picture, you paint where you'd like to go after you die, I'm sure mine is filled with darkness, fear, hate and sorrow...Advent's is probably filled with light, hope, happiness...it's probably like the hill side by the lake, with the big oak tree...the one where we all sat there that day and watched the sun set, me, Leilou, Sephiroth, Advent, and Montagna...that was a good day, in the midst of the calm, before Advent's health got bad...before the coma we were both sent into...now she spends most of her days in bed, asleep, she protests but Montagna makes her sleep and regain her health. She's so pale now...
waiting to die is like taking a deep breath before you dive into a freezing pool, there's a slight hint of fear, but it's mostly excitement, when I die, I want everyone to be with me...on the hill side, by the lake, under the big oak tree...we were all happy there...I want Sephiroth and the feeling that I get whenever I'm with him, that I'm safe, I want Daemon and her defiant smile, I want Leilou's personality, I want Montagna's loyalty...I want Paine, Battle, Nova, Venom, Sunflash, Nightmare, and Ember's friendship...I want the hidden love my brother have for me...but most of all...I want us all there...everyone...me, Daemon, Leilou, Sephiroth, Montagna, Paine, the wraiths, my brothers...I want it like it was that day...watching the sun set...when everything was good...
I am now coming to realize...when Advent dies...Kadaj and Sephiroth will die as well, I will die because our hearts are intertwined...Leilou will die because she will be heart broken for me...Montagna will have finished his duties...so he will perish as well...the wraiths will blow away like a warm summer breeze, Paine will sacrifice herself so she can be with her friends...and who will be left...no one...we are all connected in some way...and Advent is keeping us all alive...though I can feel her strength weakening...her life holds on by a mere thread, threatening to snap at an moment...I am not afraid though...because I'm sure we'll all go to the same place...be strong sweet Advent...be strong
...yes...we'll go together...hand in hand...forever...my eyes are acting up again, I can't see...wait, there's something there...the oak tree...my time has come...I can see it...I'm here with everybody...they're all waiting for me...everyone...yes...we'll go together...hand in hand...forever...
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Cloud is almost better than Kadaj...hey...I said ALMOST