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since i actually posted a real journal entry so i thought i would.

I think im in love...and i think im falling for another and i have a humongo crush on yet another guy...

guy number 1 lives so damn far away and when i tried to do long distance before it worked for a while cuz he lived a few hours away yaknow so he came up on a train. Tho after two years of that i figure that he was the reason i got so damn sick...and now im sick a lot less but im still sick. So i feel if i try to get with this guy that i'll get sick again..so i want to find someone out here....but idk if that would be considered like...cheating...or anything...or if it would be kind of slutty of me...

guy number two is amazingly awesome and i hardly know him......i just met him and i like him a little already.....you think its desperation??? im honestly not sure at all and its bothering me a lot....

guy number three is my friends cousin...his name is Austin and since he isn't a friend on here i can use his name. and younger by 2 1/2 years! o: i know its a big jump....ive dated 17 year olds....so how bad can a 13 year old be???? idk.....grrrr


GGGGRRRR THIS IS ANNOYING THAT I FALL FOR PEOPLE SO DAMN EASILY!!! im stressing out over all of this.....

someone help me! crying

on a slightly lighter note...

school is getting better. Im working harder but i failed the mock state exit exams so i have to take the prep classes and they're like 4 hours long...and on top of that i have book club and....my actual school work.

My whole life is in a bundle and is a mess....but on the bright side im very happy...thats rare huh???

thanks for actually taking the time to read this....cuz i know no one actually cares about me or what i have to say...not on here at least....i mean even on myspace i feel as if no one cares cuz i never talk to anyone even when i try to talk to them i don't get an answer back...except guy number 1 talks to me all the time....but still.....