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i think im slowly starting to slip into depression. i guess burning urself with a red hot fork is like cutting Dx *guilty as charged*...what happens when you dont like what you see in the mirror? Today was going to be great, and by all means, it was! but i guess after all is said and the day is done, what ive done seems to get me down. im not a very good person. Pros/Cons of Today:
Cons:
1. hurt abby (again)
2. hurt sam (again)
3. hurt peterson (********)
4. Hurt jess (why?!)

need i say anymore?

Pros:
1. live to see another day (sadly)
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*sigh* maybe ill just cut my self off from everyone i know and love, i dont want to end up hurting them too (if i havent already)

looks like ill never be as close to sam, abby, alllie, ali (lol), or anyone else for that matter...well, now its 11:06 and i still need to finish my damn english essay due tommorrow...if i decide to wake up v_v"

its so strange, i cant stop myself, and i just have one of those "out of body" experiences and go, "what the ******** am i doing?! what have i become?", maybe ill just give up everything that is important to me, because its no longer important...just live day to day...

im so tired of wearing this mask, nobody really knows what hell my life is, and i dont think anyone would ever care enough to get to know how much hell it really is...i act so strangely, maybe its from surpressing all these emotions and problems...

why did i smack peterson? im so stupid, thats not me at all, yet it happened...just another regret to add to the list @_@
--at this point, i dont think any emoticon could express how i really feel inside, but ill use them anyway ;B

better get a start (and finish) on that english essay Dx