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well, its been about 4 days since CJ died, and i didnt really want to go to bowling today, eventhough Corey, Ashley, and Shane (deanna's crush) were going to be there. Later, around 4-ish, sam called, said i could come over. Shane was much different than i thought initially, and i think we hit of off pretty well. I didnt have much time to get to know Corey, and Ashley was very quiet, but Shane was very hyper, and humorous. First to leave was Corey, then deanna took the rest, leaving me n sam. Later, when i got home (9:15) i went on AIM, to talk to sam, and loan behold, sam had no time to talk, as she was on the phone with everyone that was at her house. Im never on AIM past 9pm, and sam knows that, but i guess she doesnt feel im as important as the others, so i guess what im trying to say, is that with each new friendshe gets (eric, deanna, etc....) i feel like im being left behind and ignored a little every time. She logged off aswell, so, i dont know, i guesss im jealous, but she's done this before, and i guess it's useless to try, but why didnt she ask if i wanted to call or something (is 3 way the highest you can go on phone calls?). I mean, they said they'd be on AIM, and might chat room, and i guess i wanted to join, but i guess im just dreaming, and it may sound rude, but sometimes i wish sam didnt make friends so easily as she forgets them...