"And tomorrow I know is that I'll be depressed so I'll wait outside hoping that I'll catch sight of the sun. And on and off, the clouds have fought for control over the skies... and lately the weather has been so bipolar and, consequently, so have I"
Ugh. I have been felling so... inconsequential and depressed lately. I'm usually a very bubbly person, and I still am on the outside. It just seems like lately everything is affecting me. And its usually the freaking stupid stuff. After my dad died, we moved out of our house that I've lived in my whole live, for 16 1/2 years and moved to this stupid little house in a horrible town. Our old library never charged fines and I went to the new one and somehow had accrued a 15$ fine! Tiny and stupid I know, but all of a sudden I was just so overwhelmed with it all. I went outside to my car and started crying. I'll tell you, the people in the car next to me were giving me some funky looks. >_> I just missed MY house, MY home, and my daddy. So yesterday kinda sucked.
And then to top it off, at soccer practice I forgot my cleats (go figure XP) and so I slipped as we were doing 2v2 cuz it was raining and I hit a girl in her ankle. She was pissed! She didn't exactly yell at me, but she was cold. And of course that just made me feel so freaking better. >[
Ok, so most of the time I'm not so PMS-y emotional, but it was a bad day. The rest of my entries will be rants. More in likely. (:
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