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I have always found that many people are obsessed with finding love. Yet when they have it, they do not recognize it. I found this to be because people are looking for that fantasied love, that love that the movies portray, that books portray. Yet I have always been told and come to understand that love is actually very different than what people think it to be. Love is like your best friend that you love to make out with. The person who can tell all your secrets with, that has your total confidence and your trust, who you happen to love having sexual relations with. Is that so hard to think about? When you love someone, you want to spend eternity plus with them, so why can't they be your best friend? I mean you have to talk to them. It's logical that this would be true. Yes many of you can say that love is completely illogical, but it is logically illogical.

I am in love. Right now I am completely in love. Her name is Anna and she has become my world. I know that if I can't talk to anyone else, I can talk to her. And I have come to desire her like I have never desired anyone else. She creates and invokes such feelings in me, that sometimes it is hard to think. She make me pissed off and laugh all at the same time. She balances me out, yet keeps rooted all at the same time. She is my muse, my sanity and my heart. She keeps my vicious evil side at bay and can handle it. She cherishes and understands my light side and keeps me from sacrificing too much of myself. She is my Mei Muse. my Love. And finally I can just let go of my controls and fall into the sweet embrace of love in her arms.