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in addition to loseing her... i got in a fight with my dad...
i desreved a lot of what he said... but i feel hurt by a whole hell of a lot of it to...
i was online after i promised i wouldent be... and its hard to say to your father that you were on line because you wanted to see the person you knew was leaveing and you like them...
well he caught me... and i hope to god that adele is alright right now...and that shes not scared as hell i cant find a way to tell her im ok.. but left the net NOT ok.. but iam now... for the most part.
my dad hurt me... i he called me names and said he nearly doesnt love me...what i want to know is is it a bad thing that i almost wanted to say oK i feel the same for you. in return? it woul dbe the truth... ihave never forgiven him for what he said to me all those years ago.. and ive doe enverything i could to avoide bing like what he said i would be.. im a carbon copy of him and i hatemyself for it... but i try my hardest not to say things like what he said...
the scarry thing is He appologized he NEVER does that.. iwas so suprised.
well even though he did that im still finding it hard to truely forgive him... it hurt so much... but its on of exactly 4 times hes honestly appoligized to me... so i know he really means it.
i leave you with the dixie chicks.
"Ive sure enjoyed the rain.
but im looking forward to the sun.
you have to feel the pain when you lose the love you gave some one.
i thought by now the time would take way thies lonly tears
i hope your doing fine all alone but where do i go from here
cause with out you im not ok and i with out you ive lost my way
my heart stuck in second place mood
without you.
well i never thought id be
lieing here with out you by my side
it seems unreal to me
that the life ou promised was a lie
you made it look so easy makeing love into memorys
guess you got what you wanted but what abou tme?
cause with out you im not ok with out you ive lost my way
my hearts stuck in second place mood.
without you.
sombody tell my head to try to tell my heart
that im better off with out you
cause baby i cant live!
without you im not okay !
with out you ive lost my way!
my hearts stuck in second place mood
Without you... "
 Verin · Tue Sep 06, 2005 @ 10:50am · 1 Comments |
