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well my father caught me online when i shoudent have been and it triggerd his pent up rage of all time... and its not the first time this has happend... i alreayd said what he said to me in the last entry... but i found this song that is a song for my father... who i can not truthfuly say that i ither love or hate.. i both love him and hate him... i want him to leave... i want him to be gone forever... but i still love him and only want him to approve of me. this song is EXACTLY how i feel about my relation ship to him... and i hope you ejoy it.

In the dark with the music on
Wishing I was somewhere else
Taking all your anger out on me, somebody help
I would rather rot alone
Then spend a minute with you
I'm gone, I'm gone

And you can't stop me from falling apart
'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault

[Chorus]
How could you, how could you, how could you hate me?
When all I ever wanted to be was you?
How could you, how could you, how could you love me?
When all you ever gave me were open wounds?

Downstairs the enemy sleeps
Leaving the TV on
Watching all the dreams we had turn into static
Doesn't matter what I do
Nothing's gonna change
I'm never good enough

And you can't stop me from falling apart
'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault

[Chorus]

Tell me why you broke me down and betrayed my trust in you
I'm not giving up, giving in when will this war end?
When will it end??

You can't stop me from falling apart [3X]
'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault.

[Chorus]