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Oh, god. Now I can't stop writing. I can't sleep. This is the second time im three days that I have stayed up all night on the computer. The other night, I got only 5 hours of sleep. "Why?" you probably ask. Well, I have been wishing and hoping that Alex will ask me out soon, that one of us will build up enough courage to tell the other (although it won't be me), that he might even get one of his friends to ask me if I like him, or something! I think, that at the end of the school year, I will take Ashley's advice and ask him out at the eight grade promotion. No! What am I thinking? I could never do that, ever! Especially not at promotion! With all those people there? Yeah, right. Or maybe he's waiting until promotion. God. I am so desperate, it's not even funny. Here I am, talking about a guy I've liked for 6 or 7 years, and hoping that he'll finally ask me out. Sure. When pigs fly. Will they fly at promotion? No. It's on a Friday the 13th. That's bad luck. But it has always been good luck for me... so maybe he will ask me out then. Hopefully. God, I really am desperate. Ugh. It's Monday morning. In less than 6 hours, I'll see Alex. Maybe instead of sitting next to Ashley (across the aisle from Alex), I'll sit next to him today. I used to do that all the time. In elementary school, that is. Yea, I think that's what I'll do. God, am I desperate.

I hope he likes me.

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