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It is definitely strange that my eyes have returned to their blue hue, yet I am under control by Zacoryu. Even so, I can write this journal entry without his thoughts intruding or clashing with my own. I don't understand most of what is taking place right now... All I know and wonder is what will become of the clan I have been entrusted to protect. The clan I have dedicated years of my life to, where I learned a great deal about myself and my surroundings; even people.

What is to become of my conscience once I regain my true identity? So many times have I changed from darkness into light, back and forth, to and fro... The motion is endless as I become further influenced by outer forces. From dark to light once I met Unas. From light to dark after his death. Dark to light after my return to BlackIce. Light to dark after the beginning of my leadership role.

Even more importantly, what will he do to me when he is through using me as his puppet? The one person who knows of his true intent is Devonaire, who I have not seen or heard from in months.

It seems as though I've reached the cat's cradle. I lead no one in my clan. At least... no one who can save me from my new self.