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Once again, I find myself in a position where I have to rewire myself. I've done a good job in the past. I can make it so difficult, painful even, for myself to think about things. It's frighteningly easy. Takes a week, at most. And if I want to, if I really try, I can talk myself right out of liking someone. I had to, back when I liked Patrick. I knew I was being silly and foolish. All I could do was give it up. But it only works if I truly want it to. Funny how it's easier to talk myself out of a one-in-a-trillion chance than a snowball's chance in hell. The ******** snowball has a much better chance. I'm jealous of a stupid snowball, for goodness sake!
What am I doing babbling along like this? It doesn't matter. I shouldn't post this, but I am anyway. Old habits die hard. I'll pay for my idiocity later, I suppose.
 nepie · Mon Jan 07, 2008 @ 07:58pm · 0 Comments |
