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For a day there, my bed was the worst place I could be. I stayed up a little later than usual one night, and when I went to go to bed, I was a little upset by my confusing head and heart, so I went out into the kitchen to use the peppermint soap. It's my comfort smell, and I thought about the first time I put it on. It was Thanksgiving break senior year, but I couldn't remember where I was that year. I got agitated and started pacing and walking vaguely from place to place in the kitchen and front hall trying to remember and getting more and more upset as time went on and I couldn't remember. I was angry, too, that I was so wrapped up in what was happening that year between me and another friend that all I could remember about that trip was posting about the wonderfulness of the peppermint lotion here while I was out of town for Thanksgiving. I finally remembered where I was (visiting some faraway colleges), but by that point, I was crying. I crawled into bed and tried not to sob too much, even though I was fairly sure my roommate was asleep already. I held my Kitty close and listened to some calm music, but I was still getting more upset about having trouble remembering and having 3 crushes at once now, none of whom see me that way, and finally I couldn't take it. I grabbed a blanket and Kitty and stumbled out to the sofa. I calmed down immediately once I laid down and adjusted my music, and I fell asleep, for a while. It was a very light sleep, so I woke up a lot, and I ended up finally waking at around 6, even though my alarm was for 7:30.
I am incapable of getting proper sleep, it seems -.-
 nepie · Sat Aug 29, 2009 @ 03:22pm · 0 Comments |
