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when i finally have the chance to talk to you and i know everything i want to say--
i can't seem to say it at all. it's like i'm afraid or something. maybe anything i say or ask something will fire back at me haha....but still i got the chance and all i'm saying to you is blanks. it doesn't seem much of a conversation either. and you sound really
bored talking to a boring person or is it you don't know what to say to a boring
person. i know i'm boring. gosh if only i were more active.

i can't force myself to be active because then when i want to rest people will start
to ask what's wrong and there's really nothing wrong. just like if you smile than
you stop than people ask what's wrong and you just say you're tire.

your behavior changed. you used to act happy, mess with everyone, and yet somehow i see something is distanting, it could be me because i am distanting my self from everyone...well anyways...i have to take my chance to talk to you about somethings or i may never get the chance....