waiting and waiting for years
hoping something good to apper
but nothing...
all i got was the pain i live on now
maybe just waiting isnt good eough
maybe i wasnt met to live a life of happiness
but ill still wait all my time of life.
Maybe Im Really Giving my Own Pain:
no boy have ever really hurt me truly
it was all coming from me...
just thinking im not good for any guy
im just a waste of a human
i wouldnt be any use to anyone
im just going to be alone
these things was the only things i ever thought about
i just want not to any waste of time of anyone
my pain is coming from me all these time
or that im just afriad to do anything about knowing ill never be anything importent.
Masks Comes Along my Life Again:
hiding is something i do best
something i just do to make others happy
while im hurting myself
a mask hid over my emtions
telling a lie how i feel
saying im not hurt at all
wanting to cry but cant
these are the feeling i hide everyday
this mask taking over than the real me
and just to make ppl happy and not to worry about me
The Feelings I Wish to Say but Cant:
have to be shy, is the wost
afraid to say what i want to say
the fear of being hurt
or even talk to anyone
either way ill sound mean, if i talk
but not wanting to sound mean
just my head react without me even thinking
i want to be your friend but cant
just cause i dont want ppl to think im a push over
i want to say thing but cant
my shyness wont let me
maybe that's y im almost always alone
hurt
sad
and not full of crouage
i hope ill change...
-Jenny
