I feel like complete and utter s**t.
I don't feel like I wanna be with him anymore.
All day I've gritted my teeth together and "smiled"
As he phoned just now. I forced a happy tone.
But deep down I think I've lost it.
With him saying I dont give a s**t about him.
Then his anger streaks, they scare the crap out of me.
And he just ends up hurting me a bit, so now I've came to just saying
"Hit me" I mean, get it over and done with right?
And with the nightmares of him cheating on me. The ones I get every night.
And how deep down I have this gut feeling he's keeping something from me.
I really don't know why I'm still with him.
I don't think I want to be.
I'm sorry.
If I'm not being punched by the dad, I'm being hurt by him when he's angry.
I just don't know anymore.
I want to get away. Away from everything, everyone.
I don't feel like I wanna be with him anymore.
All day I've gritted my teeth together and "smiled"
As he phoned just now. I forced a happy tone.
But deep down I think I've lost it.
With him saying I dont give a s**t about him.
Then his anger streaks, they scare the crap out of me.
And he just ends up hurting me a bit, so now I've came to just saying
"Hit me" I mean, get it over and done with right?
And with the nightmares of him cheating on me. The ones I get every night.
And how deep down I have this gut feeling he's keeping something from me.
I really don't know why I'm still with him.
I don't think I want to be.
I'm sorry.
If I'm not being punched by the dad, I'm being hurt by him when he's angry.
I just don't know anymore.
I want to get away. Away from everything, everyone.
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