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I don't know what is wrong with me- I've always had a bit of a 'sort fuse' but for the past couple of months everything seems to irritate me. I find I explode over the smallest things at my now ex. I seem to cause arguements over nothing. It's hard to explain - I feel unable to control myself, I get so angry & upset - at him & myself when it happens. I really am horrible to him - I feel so alone sometimes, it feels like I don't deserve the beautiful LO I have been blessed with.

I've never been very confident & have a lot of issues to do with body-image etc, but I now feel so incapable of doing things for LO too. I'm not very good at opening up to people (I always think that people expect me to be good at things and to cope). The thought of booking an appt for my GP fills me with dread - I keep thinking they will think I'm being stupid & making a mountain out of a molehill. Maybe I am - if I am, please tell me.

I know, if it is PND, I'll be given pills that will make me normal, make me better, stop it all but what if it isn't? I go down there and there is nothing wrong? I've been thinking I have it for 6 weeks now, not told anyone..