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I was at a party with some of me friends from school and I had mass amounts of fun.... even though I spent most of the beginning talking to and 8 year old and his computer. as I was there I made some observations, recorded them and feel like writing them but that would be stupid because reflections may be the most harsh torching there is. I felt a sense of family that I love and even those whom I believed didn't want me there contributed to this feeling. I saw a couple there too who I hope will last forever, the girl (hostess of the party) is perhaps the most kind person I know for her age and the boy is strong willed and well balanced mentally and physically. as where it is true that I knew them both long before they started dating I never noticed how well they function together. kudos to both of you, or in Eskimo, (may your beard forever grow long.....er....maybe not hers.....that would be awkward). the second observation I made that I wish to talk about is the rivalries we felt with some of the other guests. in games like twister and times when I lost my balls to two young ladies with a knack for putting things down their shirts, competitive spirits rose like wildfire, and it was nice to be able to connect on such a simple level.
my regrets: I wish I had been able to be more active in games such as ddr, as where I know I am not very good at it, I bet it would have been fun. I wish that i did not have to take me medications whilst at the party, I felt alienated and I was starting to lose me speech capacity. I wish that I had brought the gift that I had bought for one of the people who was there, even though it may not mean much to her, it would be one more baboon off my back.
my accomplishments: I was able to have fun even whilst somewhat uncomfortable, I was able to humanize myself without breaking social boundaries. I was able to see my friends again and still feel at home. I gained a new respect for two people that I thought would never speak to me again. because I was at this party, I was able to keep from drinking at my other friend's party that they had that night and I only had to babysit me little cousin for an hour when I stopped a home for my grandma's birthday. lastly I dropped my guard for a while and tough short, that is an accomplishment in itself.

in conclusion I had fun and I learned a good bit about these people who I hold in such high regard. I hope this kind of thing happens again

(oh, and I wasn't turned on at all....this is strange because I always am and I was in some interesting positions during truth or dare....curios? yes)