I hurried to the scene of the kitchen only to notice the kitchen as a mess, it poped into my mind of what might of happend before I came home? But this wasn't the time to question and pounder on that. I needed to quickly find out the meaning of the situation that had just gone on.
Kneeling down, by my fiance, I could tell she might have also been in tears when I was. Her face was a soft red shade, and her colar was soaking wet, Could of been sweat, or water, but it had the possibility as tears seeing the quivering voice she had used while speaking those aweful words.
"Hunny..." I softly called while tilting her head slightly to the left, to face me more seeing her head had been turned, most likely from the backlash of the slap, even a deep crimson handprint could be seen forced over her right cheek, and part of her lips.
As I felt her eyes open more to stare at me, I found my heart skipping a beat. Tears strolled down her cheeks as she opened her eyes to see me, I was right. She was crying, but this was the first I had noticed her in such a mess. I wanted to just embrace her, stroke her hair and tell her 'Just let it all out..I'm here, I'll keep you safe now' But from the thoughts in my mind. I restrained the eurge, and instead put on a serious expresion, and griped her shoulders.
"Hunny.." I called again, more firmly now. "Tell me, did you kiss other men? Did you lie about anything to me? Tell me..I need your honest words, right now!" I said, my voice raising a little. I dint mean to sound pushy. But those thoughts were hurting me, I could barely retain from bursting into tears as I asked. I had to keep strong, for both myself and her.
I waited, giving her some time, yet she never spoke. I decided I pushed too much in asking. I had to try and calm her first. "Listen..Hunny I-" and at that moment, everything seems like a nightmare gone mad, she widend her eyes, and stared up at me. Her hands clutching onto my forearms, as she shouted a reply to my earlier question.
"Yes! I admit to it all!" she seemed to shout. Her voice seeming like she was being forced to speak it all, yet I just listend, I knew she had more.
"When I leave at night you're always asleep..I'd usually add a small drug to make you doze off without any difference, pathetic, I thought you'd be stronger.." she said to me, I tried to stay serious while listening, but when I noticed her laughing afterwords, and smirking as she looked to the ground. I knew I had lost control, I din't mean to, but I had, and my body seemed to move without getting the proper order.
I felt my hand raise, and while hearing her laugh, I then heard silence shortly after.
What happend? Why'd she stop laughing? I asked myself, and as my head rose. I saw what caused her to stop.
My hand was entended out to the side, and her face had been tilted once more, this time to the right, another slap mark showing over her delicate cheek. "I.." I began, only able to stare as her eyes widely stared at her reflection in the stove. She dint speak, and neither did I.
My hand slowly fell limp to my side, then I felt my teeth grit together, and another foolish an uncontrolable thing happend, this time in words.
"What do you think you are?! You drug me..You leave my side, and you betray my trust?! I loved you for these years. I gave you everything! Even my own life would be yours!" I shouted. I could feel so much anger in me, I just, wanted it all out, and started to end up taking it all out on my fiance.
With my heart beating faster, I contiued onwards.
"I..I wouldnt of married you, If I knew you were such a person, whats wrong, am I, your fiance not good enough to satisfy your love?! Do you honestly need to go out, and make love with others just to feel more satisfied?!" I concluded, before I felt a small rip in my lower lip, I now noticed how much I was biting it.
"Well? No..Reply?" I spoke again, seeing her eyes now closed, and her hand touching the mark I had left to her cheek. But, for some reason, I still heard nothing from her, not one word in difference. With the silence growing, I just stood up, and closed my eyes.
"Fine, If you cant defend yourself..Then just leave, I dont want a whore like you, hanging around in a place where I can..No, could of called you my love," I rememeber, as my last words as I left the kitchen. I don't know what she could of down while I left. But I rememeber going up the staires, tears now back in my eyes.
What...Had I just done? I could only say. I knew what I said and done. Was nothing of the true me.
Kneeling down, by my fiance, I could tell she might have also been in tears when I was. Her face was a soft red shade, and her colar was soaking wet, Could of been sweat, or water, but it had the possibility as tears seeing the quivering voice she had used while speaking those aweful words.
"Hunny..." I softly called while tilting her head slightly to the left, to face me more seeing her head had been turned, most likely from the backlash of the slap, even a deep crimson handprint could be seen forced over her right cheek, and part of her lips.
As I felt her eyes open more to stare at me, I found my heart skipping a beat. Tears strolled down her cheeks as she opened her eyes to see me, I was right. She was crying, but this was the first I had noticed her in such a mess. I wanted to just embrace her, stroke her hair and tell her 'Just let it all out..I'm here, I'll keep you safe now' But from the thoughts in my mind. I restrained the eurge, and instead put on a serious expresion, and griped her shoulders.
"Hunny.." I called again, more firmly now. "Tell me, did you kiss other men? Did you lie about anything to me? Tell me..I need your honest words, right now!" I said, my voice raising a little. I dint mean to sound pushy. But those thoughts were hurting me, I could barely retain from bursting into tears as I asked. I had to keep strong, for both myself and her.
I waited, giving her some time, yet she never spoke. I decided I pushed too much in asking. I had to try and calm her first. "Listen..Hunny I-" and at that moment, everything seems like a nightmare gone mad, she widend her eyes, and stared up at me. Her hands clutching onto my forearms, as she shouted a reply to my earlier question.
"Yes! I admit to it all!" she seemed to shout. Her voice seeming like she was being forced to speak it all, yet I just listend, I knew she had more.
"When I leave at night you're always asleep..I'd usually add a small drug to make you doze off without any difference, pathetic, I thought you'd be stronger.." she said to me, I tried to stay serious while listening, but when I noticed her laughing afterwords, and smirking as she looked to the ground. I knew I had lost control, I din't mean to, but I had, and my body seemed to move without getting the proper order.
I felt my hand raise, and while hearing her laugh, I then heard silence shortly after.
What happend? Why'd she stop laughing? I asked myself, and as my head rose. I saw what caused her to stop.
My hand was entended out to the side, and her face had been tilted once more, this time to the right, another slap mark showing over her delicate cheek. "I.." I began, only able to stare as her eyes widely stared at her reflection in the stove. She dint speak, and neither did I.
My hand slowly fell limp to my side, then I felt my teeth grit together, and another foolish an uncontrolable thing happend, this time in words.
"What do you think you are?! You drug me..You leave my side, and you betray my trust?! I loved you for these years. I gave you everything! Even my own life would be yours!" I shouted. I could feel so much anger in me, I just, wanted it all out, and started to end up taking it all out on my fiance.
With my heart beating faster, I contiued onwards.
"I..I wouldnt of married you, If I knew you were such a person, whats wrong, am I, your fiance not good enough to satisfy your love?! Do you honestly need to go out, and make love with others just to feel more satisfied?!" I concluded, before I felt a small rip in my lower lip, I now noticed how much I was biting it.
"Well? No..Reply?" I spoke again, seeing her eyes now closed, and her hand touching the mark I had left to her cheek. But, for some reason, I still heard nothing from her, not one word in difference. With the silence growing, I just stood up, and closed my eyes.
"Fine, If you cant defend yourself..Then just leave, I dont want a whore like you, hanging around in a place where I can..No, could of called you my love," I rememeber, as my last words as I left the kitchen. I don't know what she could of down while I left. But I rememeber going up the staires, tears now back in my eyes.
What...Had I just done? I could only say. I knew what I said and done. Was nothing of the true me.
