Okay so, along with the one before this I was fuming one night and all. And mind you this is pointless but meaningful I guess. Again its not a poem thingy...unless you wanna call it a poem. And again I must tell you its 1:47am where I live sooo I'm tired and putting this up here for no reason. Ahahah have fun ya'll.
Self reflection is like dedication until you die
Did you see me today? Smiling and laughing again. Maybe it was sad back then. Those day's I didnt move but thought alone in a room. I took a look at my life like I look at myself in the water. Closing my eyes to fall asleep I see it on the back of my eyelids. Chilling to the bone it was. Yet I have changed now. Hardened my skin. I understand what it's like to be lied to. To be broken and expected to give up and stop smiling. Sorry that it didnt work. I know you must be mad at me now. For getting up and being proud and having that pride and that ego that will never die.
My reflection was a dedication to you. Trying to change and see it through. Looks like I win again. You didnt beat me. I got back up I smiled like this. Laughed happily and found something good for me. Just like this day I will hold it up. Until I die I will relflect all those times you told me to stay down and hide.
That night was so great. Because I was seething in anger. It was funny to me. Knowing your friends will turn on you. Say things they mean then later say they are sorry or rub it in your face. So for all of you who expected me to give up, please get a life. Because I dont miss anything. I am so strong that my collar bones could break and I would smile through it. My tears are not of sadness but of anger. And I know you're angry but forgive me I just cant seem to stay down.
And all those nights I spent reflecting I have to tell you they were great. I laughed so hard I cried. And it was at you. And your pitiful attempts to get her to leave me and me to be sad. I learned my lesson long before that. When I finally understood you were below me. Under my level of thinking. Under what I knew. And for the time being I'd like to keep it that way. Because I know you all smile at her and glare at me but one thing is what you're forgetting. You see I smile at you when you glare at me and yes I do hate you. Good for you good for me. Because all those times you've tried to keep me down. I've gotten back up. So while you sink into a depression I'll be having fun with the people I know I can trust and love. Thanks again for listening to me, and trying to get me to stay down.
But I promise I'll keept getting up. And keep smiling, laughing, and being happy until the day my eyelids slide shut. And I dont wake up again.
Self reflection is like dedication until you die
Did you see me today? Smiling and laughing again. Maybe it was sad back then. Those day's I didnt move but thought alone in a room. I took a look at my life like I look at myself in the water. Closing my eyes to fall asleep I see it on the back of my eyelids. Chilling to the bone it was. Yet I have changed now. Hardened my skin. I understand what it's like to be lied to. To be broken and expected to give up and stop smiling. Sorry that it didnt work. I know you must be mad at me now. For getting up and being proud and having that pride and that ego that will never die.
My reflection was a dedication to you. Trying to change and see it through. Looks like I win again. You didnt beat me. I got back up I smiled like this. Laughed happily and found something good for me. Just like this day I will hold it up. Until I die I will relflect all those times you told me to stay down and hide.
That night was so great. Because I was seething in anger. It was funny to me. Knowing your friends will turn on you. Say things they mean then later say they are sorry or rub it in your face. So for all of you who expected me to give up, please get a life. Because I dont miss anything. I am so strong that my collar bones could break and I would smile through it. My tears are not of sadness but of anger. And I know you're angry but forgive me I just cant seem to stay down.
And all those nights I spent reflecting I have to tell you they were great. I laughed so hard I cried. And it was at you. And your pitiful attempts to get her to leave me and me to be sad. I learned my lesson long before that. When I finally understood you were below me. Under my level of thinking. Under what I knew. And for the time being I'd like to keep it that way. Because I know you all smile at her and glare at me but one thing is what you're forgetting. You see I smile at you when you glare at me and yes I do hate you. Good for you good for me. Because all those times you've tried to keep me down. I've gotten back up. So while you sink into a depression I'll be having fun with the people I know I can trust and love. Thanks again for listening to me, and trying to get me to stay down.
But I promise I'll keept getting up. And keep smiling, laughing, and being happy until the day my eyelids slide shut. And I dont wake up again.
