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After a story akumani told me of my past i had a terrible vision of my past the very time i died.i saw me evil walking walking in what looked like a desert then it flashes forward im now in a stone hallway i take a left to these steps and its like a balcony

i hear myself debating on what to do"i should kill him its my job...no he was so nice to me...its just a job i have to ,to save the others"then i pause for like two seconds take a breathe and i point the bow at the kings head i see everyone having fun and laughing a tear sriked down my face

i turn my head and release the whoosh of the arrow is all u heard then it flashes again to the day i was to die.im on my knees on the ground with my head down i was thinking very fast as to what was happening i knew he woul have me killed but he said he loved me how could he??

but then i think of the truth i wanted to die so i woudnt hav to protect the stone and i wouldnt have to kill anyone close to me. at his command spoken i start to cry i look around for any face everyone turns away i see the eldest brother he looks straight at me not angry but with pity.

I can literally feel the arrow hit me right below my collar bone then all goes black, that was my worst memory even though i wanted to be caught and killed i felt such abandoment from him he cried every time i died i still carry the scar as a reminder of what sacrife i went through to have this life and for him to be safe.and not to trust.