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Note: Please dismiss the previous post. I know God made me stronger than that... I just have my moments of weakness.
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Now I say love stricken, but who knows what it is. I know I'm not in love, but for not having a chance with this person... I really liked him and he's the only reason to why I want to go on that website again. Even though I know he hasn't sent me any type of messages and I know he's found someone so much more interesting and closer to his age than me... but I still really like him. I don't care that he's so many years older than me and I don't mind that he's all the way across the world... Sure, I know he probably most likely minds... but it still doesn't stop me from wanting to be with him... I don't know.
I'm usually able to just get over people if I know there's no chance, but this time I'm really wanting for there to be such a chance. And just because I'm used to having to get over people, doesn't mean that I'm used to the pain.
This really bothers me cat_cry