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I have to be honest... when I think of death at times like these, I feel like crying... not out of fear or sadness, but because I long for it so much.
I wish I could just end it all. Dear Heavenly Father... just the thought of slitting my wrist or thinking of my body dropping cold to the floor... It's such an exhilarating feeling.
Death.... If I could go straight to heaven after committing suicide, I would do it right this very moment.
I know there are good times in my life, but I'm sick of it all. The pain, fear, and disasters of life... of my own life... I'm fed up. I just want to vanish now...
God, I kind of wish you would kill me now. I'm so tired. I need to rest... forever.