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I.
That small smile
The two tears that dropped
The bound hand reaching for mine
Which you held so tight
It made me feel like you loved me
And when the delusion was gone
When the drugs wore away
It became like it always was.
Nothing but you and me
And an impossible chasm between

II.
When it is like this
I wish I could scream
If I could peel away
All I am to show you
The rage inside
The black fires
Which hide only
Red blood of despair

III.
If I could take my life
And break it in half
I would give one half to myself
And break the other half again
And give half to someone else
And break the remaining half again
And give half to someone who deserves it
And break the remaining half again
Throw half away
Break it again…
And let you have what’s left

IV.
Kick it down, smash it
Destroy it, burn it
Tear it to pieces
Let the wind take it away
There’s nothing good
Between you and me

V.
This is just me
Trying to understand
To decide
The merit of another lie
The excuse is easy to make
The disguise simple
You’re too self-centered…
If I lie or speak truth
The difference will never be felt.
Then, how can I be close to you?

VI.
I hate you!
There, I said it.

VII.