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As much as I TRY and all that I DO to still hopfully be friends...It will always be awkward.. it will always hurt.. and I knew from the last talk we had.. it will barely heal.. Try ,Try,Try again.. it barely begun and yet it feels too late.. I am told to change who I am to be accepted by the one I love dear.. but they should love me truely.. for who I am, not just smoke and mirrors. I just lost my lover.. I was that kite that got away from that lovely tall tree one day.. still a torn kite.. struggling to stay in flight.. Somethings were damned from the start.. No matter how hard you try to keep something alive.. no matter what..the time will come and that shall die..

How can you "Just be friends" if they won't even speak to you?
"I will be here if you still want me." I STILL WANT YOU... but that's going to die VERY fast if I'm just that shadow in the corner.Bits and pieces of my emotions for a relationship break more and die off everyday. If you feel like you want to get back together.. GREAT, I would love that. I know that's not going to happen though.. So far away..such a big gap of age between us.. and a kid old enough to be my sister..
Maybe I shoulddate around my OWN age.. maybe.. just maybe.. it would help me stay in a relationship..