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i'm at the airport right about to leave boise an my boyfriend. im crying a bit right now cause there were things we still wanted to do but didn't have the time. it hurts so much cause i don't know when i'll see him again or even have the money to do something like this again. i just want to miss this flight an stay here even though i know i can't cause of all sorts of little things, but god i want to so bad.
great now i'm cry right now, god i wish i had a way to stay here for longer.
if i ever fly out here again i'm taking a one way flight an not flying back till i want to which may be never.

i can't even look at the screen of my laptop with out crying.
this has got to be the hardest thing in my life so far, i didn't even cry this much when any one i've known has died

okay so I've been in Boise since saturday to see my boyfriend. on the night of the fourth we went to a friends an i had a few drinks an while drunk i realised just how much i truly loved him, i mean i know i cared for him an loved him but it hit me how much i truly love him.
i hope some one that reads this gets what I'm saying