Friends.
What are they?
Guardian angels that save your life or... are they thieves who rob your life away? Perhaps a assassin, preparing to stab you in the back. I've had bad experience with friends... and no, they never seem to get better.
I'm sick of losing all of the people I love most- I know that Max and I will always have each other, but the people that I considered family are the ones that I'm always afraid of. I can't seem to have just a regular 'friend' without treating them like 'family'; of course, when I end up losing them (which is always the case...) it hurts like Hell.
Now it's time for me to draw my shield- unsheath my sword and fight back against this. I won't call for help anymore. I'll defend myself. So, I sit here now, preparing myself for the fateful day when my best friend and I go our seperate ways. I can see it, feel it and hear it coming right for me... All I wanted was a time of calm with my "sister". Oh, yes. She knows who she is (however she's probably too lazy to be reading this anyways.)
There's not much for me to say- I wasn't trying to make this into some big fancy piece of writing, I just had to let those feelings out. And I have no idea why the Hell I'm writing this in my Gaia journal, but oh well. -.-; Comment if you want.
What are they?
Guardian angels that save your life or... are they thieves who rob your life away? Perhaps a assassin, preparing to stab you in the back. I've had bad experience with friends... and no, they never seem to get better.
I'm sick of losing all of the people I love most- I know that Max and I will always have each other, but the people that I considered family are the ones that I'm always afraid of. I can't seem to have just a regular 'friend' without treating them like 'family'; of course, when I end up losing them (which is always the case...) it hurts like Hell.
Now it's time for me to draw my shield- unsheath my sword and fight back against this. I won't call for help anymore. I'll defend myself. So, I sit here now, preparing myself for the fateful day when my best friend and I go our seperate ways. I can see it, feel it and hear it coming right for me... All I wanted was a time of calm with my "sister". Oh, yes. She knows who she is (however she's probably too lazy to be reading this anyways.)
There's not much for me to say- I wasn't trying to make this into some big fancy piece of writing, I just had to let those feelings out. And I have no idea why the Hell I'm writing this in my Gaia journal, but oh well. -.-; Comment if you want.
