I'll keep on trying until my dying day ♥
Sometimes I feel like a chump in this world. Like no matter who I believe I always come up as little informed as before. Like it's just all a big lie and I'm sitting here stuck in a void. With nowhere to turn or to go. It just really ticks me off sometimes. Then it seems like I'm abandoned by those I love in my time of need. And I'm left in the drenching rain with tears in my eyes and down my cheeks. I always get the short end of the stick no matter what I choose. I could choose to be alone but then I want someone around and when I choose to be with friends I want to be alone. Why should I even try to make choices? I'm always ending up at a dead end road and all on my own. With my heart torn wide open spilling out its life onto the ground. Sometimes I wonder if I should just go to my grave sooner then I think about all those I may hurt or take with me. Then I'm stuck in the middle neither fully living or fully dead. I always have to take the middle path to please my wants and others wants. But sometimes it gets very hard on me when I just want to be my own person and no one else's. I hate being single and yet I always get hurt by those I am with. Sometimes I just wonder why I bother to give love a try for it seems I'm always the one giving and giving and barely receiving. My heart tries frantically to love while my brain tries to put its foot down. Life's just so confusing even when you're on the sidelines. Anyways I'm done with my heartbroken rant.
♥ Ijust need to know whatever has happened
The truth will free my soul ♥
The truth will free my soul ♥
