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well..we broke up about 2 days ago. but this one was different from any other break up i've had with anyone. this was the only break up that was caused by me. shyea. so it was my fault. it wasnt his fault. i guess i got a little ******** up. but he kind of told me something that i needed to hear. something that i really needed. i needed to live. while i was sitting here on the computer all day being a lazy a** sac of potatos he was out busting his a**. so, i got my a** up and decided to start a life. i started the day we broke up. i didnt go on the computer at all that day. the school day was absolutly horrible but when i got home it was like it never happened. everything was just switched around. i got home from school, and the rest of my day was great. and at the end of the day when i got out of the shower after washing away all of my problems and worries, i was like a whole different person. sang down the hallway to the bathroom said good night to all of my siblings, walked into the bathroom, looked in the mirror and said " beth you did pretty ******** good today". and that rarely happens. so i was in a really good mood. i felt so refreshed.. i love taking showers^_^