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i...just dont know anymore. i feel like my heart is bleeding. i have no motive no reason no nothing today i just discovered more lies yea like thats a suprise people are really pissing me off. i right now i hate so much it is unbearable if it wasnt illegal, i would kill alot of people i feel like st i wish i could just go but noooo people **** complain well if i go then there wont be anything left to be heard once again, i have sunk and fallen into a depressed state it hurts to smile it makes me wanna puke i hate people i really do i think im better off being alone just to disapear never come back no more trouble for anyone no more pain no more hate no more secrets no more anything just... i cause trouble everything to me feels like a lie i seriously feel like im dying that is how much i hurt im tired of this all i hear something then see another it kills me tears wont leave me no more instead i feel empty i feel alone thats all i feel maybe giving up is a bad decision but its better then covering up i might not come on gaia anymore i see no point im back to sleeping again thats all i have done for over 4yrs now i cant feel this pain i wont im on the verge of letting go the string that is holding me, i can see it thin away till nothings left and i will fall it doesnt scare me it has no effect on me i wait for it and i hope for it eh, i just...dont care what happens to me anymore my life is a lie i hear lies and i see truths either way it hurts i think this means...im giving up it will be better this way i should be alone that is the punishment i deserve and i welcome it in open arms... tormentedsleeper666** · Wed Apr 04, 2007 @ 11:18pm · 2 Comments


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	Chyenne... I can't explain the emotion I feel right now but it hurts my chest, I read this and think if you die there won't be anything. I know you say that I can find another person but maybe I don't want to. I love you now, I've said things to you that I couldn't to another and well I love how you listen to me. Honestly if people heard what I think then they would call me crazy, you relate to me the most! Chy, don't leave me, don't leave this world. The pain you feel, I caused it all, Im a ****** idiot. The things I do in this world I do not take pride in, the only thing I do is that I have you to care for. I love keeping you safe and happy, I am made to protect. Chyenne, we have gone through hard times but it is just the start of our relationship, am I right? We have both of our lives together, PLEASE do not let it disapear. I tell you Meme as I cry that I love you and I mean it. I know I've lied to you and I cant say I havn't. I'm trying to build my trust back with you so don't you leave....don't or I will follow you and even in death you cannot get rid of me. Whatever happens after life I will be sure to be there, protecting you as I do here, protecting you from yourself, myself and others. I love you Chyenne....and I wish for the better of our relationship because it hurts to hear you are starting to not care about anything, my body pains me, I feel heavy and the tears won't stop now. I am glad to be with you, I take no regret in being with you. Also, do not blame yourself for anything Meme, I don't think you have cause anything. I will talk to you when you get home I hope, please Chy...wake up from your depression and gaze into my eyes tomarrow, just, let me love you and let us be together forever Chyenne. I love you. Offline DarkSolo** · Community Member · Thu Apr 05, 2007 @ 12:50am


	This world to me is becoming a burden to me, my family is changing, my dad...makes me want to die, youre the only one truly close to me. I don't want to make it seem like I'm "making" you be with me with guilt just, I...really need someone...and that someone being you Chy. Had to write another since it was too long in the first post. -.- Offline DarkSolo · Community Member · Thu Apr 05, 2007 @ 12:58am

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