Hmmmm.
*Ramble*
So, I'm missing school again. Pretty soon I'm going to have to sit in juvy and think about what I have done... Why it's wrong, what makes me think I can throw my life away, why we have to shower with other gir---.... Let's just say I'll be thinking. Hmm... I've always wanted to try solitary confinement. I want to know if I can actually be driven to insanity... Or run around lost in my mind for endless hours on end.
However, I'm not going to repent. School just isn't for me and I have not the budget nor the mother to school myself. For the most part I'm going to gather my information from family, friends, and strangers alike. I am a student of life, but I'm not a student at high school. It's like a giant prison cell with more people. Soo many people.... They make me nervous. Hell, even people online make me nervous. Their judgment and actions, thoughts and breaths... Maybe I think about it too much... I'm not the one to tell... What about when I need to get a job? Am I supposed to become that dropout stripper/prostitute, shall I mooch off of my mom? Maybe I'll get a rich boyfriend and then he can deal with me... Nah... I'll get a job.. and a nice little apartment. It might not come with the fastest internet or over 100 channels... But if it's a home of my own... I'll cherish it and I'll work hard to keep it. The original plan was to get through with high school, go to college with my best friend, live together, and then become real artists... But... Sadly, my creativity has washed away and so has my drive for any lifestyle pertaining to the norm.
*Ramble*
So, I'm missing school again. Pretty soon I'm going to have to sit in juvy and think about what I have done... Why it's wrong, what makes me think I can throw my life away, why we have to shower with other gir---.... Let's just say I'll be thinking. Hmm... I've always wanted to try solitary confinement. I want to know if I can actually be driven to insanity... Or run around lost in my mind for endless hours on end.
However, I'm not going to repent. School just isn't for me and I have not the budget nor the mother to school myself. For the most part I'm going to gather my information from family, friends, and strangers alike. I am a student of life, but I'm not a student at high school. It's like a giant prison cell with more people. Soo many people.... They make me nervous. Hell, even people online make me nervous. Their judgment and actions, thoughts and breaths... Maybe I think about it too much... I'm not the one to tell... What about when I need to get a job? Am I supposed to become that dropout stripper/prostitute, shall I mooch off of my mom? Maybe I'll get a rich boyfriend and then he can deal with me... Nah... I'll get a job.. and a nice little apartment. It might not come with the fastest internet or over 100 channels... But if it's a home of my own... I'll cherish it and I'll work hard to keep it. The original plan was to get through with high school, go to college with my best friend, live together, and then become real artists... But... Sadly, my creativity has washed away and so has my drive for any lifestyle pertaining to the norm.
