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March 10, 2007
So Kaz doesn't care either way if I talk to him or not. It just doesn't matter to him. If I leave the ID thread he just says he'll find someone else to talk to. So I left. He never IMs me, calls me, nothing. And I don't want to talk to him if it's just not going to matter to him. I'm wondering if it will ever matter, if I will ever hear from him again. It already seems like forever ago that he was here. It doesn't really even seem like it happened anymore. But that's how I want to remember him. And talking to him now and seeing how much he doesn't care and how little it matters to him one way or the other just makes me feel awful, so I'm not speaking to him at all anymore, not until he decides he actually wants me around. If he ever decides that. So I guess if he ever makes the effort to talk to me I'll know. Maybe I should spend less time online. I did yesterday. I just wish there was more to do around here. I have nothing to do but sit here and think about that one week.
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