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March 8, 2007
So last night I asked Kaz if I could ban certain people from his guild. He said I could, and I made sure with him that he wasn't going to get mad about it later on, which he said he wouldn't. But as soon as I did it, he complained about it. Why does he always do this? I mean, I made sure ahead of time and wasn't going to do it if he had a problem with it since it is his guild. But technically, these people quit, they just didn't bother to actually remove themselves from the guilds. So I only got one guild done with. And not the other. And the other is the one where people were more of a problem. But now I have to hold off on it because Kaz has weird reactions and I don't want to cause any more problems. Which is all he sees me as. A problem. So I'm not even going to talk to him if that's how he feels about me. Today has just been very lonely and awful, except when I was with my friend. At least last night Barton called me and talked for a little bit, and Gabe was actually on so I talked to him a little. And then this morning Rachel randomly came to my house and knocked on the door until I woke up. So we hung out for a while and then went to school for the club, then after that she went home and I just went and got online for a very boring wait for my class. At least I got some homework done. But no one to talk to. I posted some in the ID thread but Kaz is just being that way still. I just feel all alone now. I came home, ended up falling asleep and then waking up again, and am just randomly going around Gaia. Kaz is the only one who even talks to me on an everyday basis and without him it's just terrible. But he just makes me hurt more and more and I don't think he wants me around.
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