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I don't feel like things are getting any better. I mean, I want to go up and talk to her, but most of the time her boyfriend J.B. is around. I know I should get over it, but something inside me doesn't want to let her go. I still Love her, and I'm not sure if that means anything to her now. I look at her sometimes and she looks like she's so happy, and I'm glad she is. I notice that she looks at me sometimes and I'm not quite sure what that means. I would hope it's a good sign, but I don't know, I don't want to get my hopes up. I hope her boyfriend now treats her better than I did, I don't want her heart to break again. People tell me to get over her, but I don't think any one understands what she means to me and how much I still Love her. I think about how pretty her eyes are and sometimes I just want to go kiss her and sweep her off her feet again, but I know I can't do that now because she is with someone else. I look at all the other girls at my school and around where I live or who I know and I don't see myself with any of them honestly. I had a a dream the other night about Sky and myself, but because of my heritage if I tell it that it won't come true. I just wish that it may. She is so beautiful. I hope she knows that I still Love her and that maybe somewhere down the line we could have another chance. She told me once that we would never be together again...I don't know if I should believe that. Maybe I'm just holding on to something that isn't there. I guess I should go now. Find something to pass the time.
 Phoenix Maristat · Fri Mar 11, 2005 @ 08:46pm · 0 Comments |
