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Well today... wasn't the best of days, but it was the better that I've had in a while at least. To start off, I woke up feeling horrible, but I couldn't stay home because my parents said they'd be gone (but if I needed them to call and they'd come get me, which... i thought kinda canceled itself out) So, we headed off to school and I took a pill with breakfast that rather worked. After that, the day went along rather natural, but for some reason the cafeteria was freezing as it was yesterday for an odd reason.
Well, the day went along a bit more normal, but in some of my classes, I got my teacher's attention more than usual, which I mostly had my face burried in a book given to me by my friend (we'll call her Rose). Rose had said it was a wonderful book, and so far, I am thoroughly enjoying it ^ ^ Another time I noticed (Link) a few, which I try not to now a days. But, all the times I saw him, he rarely smiled and one time I noticed him he actually liked as he had once that I saw him in the past, which stirred me about, but was enough to make me turn around and continue my conversation on with someone that I was with.
Well around the end of the day, my pill I took that morning started to wear off, I knowXP I wanted to die and couldn't sit still with all the pain shooting in my stomach, so I asked to go to the restroom and called my mom from there to pick me up, which I'm glad she did like an hour away from school being let out.
But now, we have a few days of 'sickness' to use as an excuse not to talk to people over their problems and try to relax for myself for a while. Which, right now I'm going through a bit of a crisis with my boyfriend (Blue) so you see it seems, he's not over his last girlfriend, and just when I think we're broken up he texts me and tells me 'Goodnight baby, -kisses- -cuddles- sleep well and have an amazing day tomorrow' which only makes me roll my eyes and wonder what I'm going to do now. Rose was right, I do have a tempormental boyfriend >< But stil, it was surprising that today... I had a good day. I really don't know why, but I can look back on the day, and smile ^ ^
{edit} I think I know... why I had such a good day.... Last night when I spoke to Blue, I must admit I was rather a jerk and really harsh to him... -sigh- maybe I shouldn't have been... but anywho! I released all my feelings .... I got rid of all that horror and anger that I've had built up inside and it was such a sweet release... to just... let it all out... it was amazing.... and now, it feels.... wow....
{edit again} the book Rose lent me makes me think, as she said it would. But you really put yourself in the character's shoes and think that you have no friends, and to wonder of other things about the world and see such an opinion that it really does thrill you....
 wolf ie · Wed Feb 28, 2007 @ 08:54pm · 3 Comments |
