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February 26, 2007
Last night Kaz scared the crap out of me! I went to take a shower. Honestly I was expecting him to come in the bathroom or something while I was in the shower but I guess he figured the door was locked. I was kind of just seeing if he'd do it or not. But he didn't, so I got out and didn't think anymore of it. I went into my room with my towel on and when I walked in I saw him sitting on the floor sort of trying to hide and I just wasn't expecting it and I screamed. XD I'm just not used to walking into my room to find a guy hiding in there when I have nothing but a towel on, it was scary! So yeah, after I calmed down I still felt really awkward. I mean, he'd already seen me before, we'd sent each other pictures, but it's just weird, and I felt weird getting dressed in front of him, so I sat there for like an hour at least probably in just my towel feeling all embarrassed and silly. He kept trying to get me to take it off and get dressed. XD I eventually did really fast. Also he had no pants on. Right before I'd gone to take a shower he took his pants off and declared that it was random no pants time for him. So he just had these boxers on. And we sat there looking at the funny words on them, cause they said a bunch of things all over them that didn't make much sense. XD Apparently it was Engrish. That was amusing at least. But it was scary when I first went in there because I screamed and I thought for sure someone would wake up, and if my mom came into my room and saw me in a towel and Kaz with no pants on, it wouldn't look very good. It would look pretty bad. But no one came in. Today I got up and Kaz was still asleep so I decided to let him sleep instead of waking him up just to sit and wait for my class to be finished. He might as well sleep through it. I went to class and came home and he was still asleep, so lay down next to him like usual until he woke up. So we were hugging and whatever and he took that stupid condom out. The one I'd been pissed that he'd gotten from college. So here was my chance to do something about it so I could quit worrying about it. I took it from him. So now he couldn't think that he could just have sex with me whenever either. So I took care of that too. I'm just not ready to just suddenly have sex with someone who I just met in real life. Yes I love him and want to do with with him eventually. But not right now. There's just too much crap to worry about that I'm not ready to deal with. I have to make sure he's the right person. I think he is and I want him to be, but I don't want to go through what I've gone through with him previously. This relationship almost ended a while back and I have to know that isn't going to happen ever again. So I took it and I put it in my pocket. He tried to get it back from me but I kept him from getting it, and later I got up to go get something and went and hid it somewhere. Well he bugged me about it the rest of the day, asking where it was, asking for it back, finally I told him I hid it in my parents' bedroom. So that he'd go looking around there. I mean, might as well get some entertainment out of this... I thought the idea of him searching my parents' room for a condom was funny. And if they caught him looking around in there he'd have to figure out something to say. Well they didn't really notice, and maybe it's better that way. XD Although my dad noticed when he came home these weird little keychain guys we took out of a drawer and were looking at and questioned me if Kaz went through his stuff. Which I just said that I'd told him something was in that room and he was looking for it. I didn't tell him what. I can tell my mom things like that, but not my dad. I did end up telling her, and she was fine with it. But my dad would have freaked out if he knew Kaz had brought a condom. But yeah, we played with Smoky some, since he was in there, and I guess Kaz was trying to make it look like that was why he was in their room. And later my grandparents came over to meet him and stuff.
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