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I can hear your words in my head
as i express my anger on myself
tears slowly fall, wishing i were dead
cant take this pain anymore
looking down at the marks made
as i begin to fall to the floor
wishing for my life to fade
as the past remains the same
the present becomes a struggle
and i only have you to blame
depression starts sinking in
as all this becomes a secret shame
looking at the patterns on my skin
so many downs,i don't think i can win
all the long hours of fights
my expressions lives in a frown
as tears fall each and every night
locking all my pain on the inside
wondering if they ever cared
as i runaway and hide
not like they were ever there
but i know i need to stay strong
not for them but for you
and Ive waited so long
for someone who is true
but this addiction i cannot win
everything still brings me back
to the pretty patterns on my skin
reminding me everything i lack
but the blade doesn't go deep
cuz i picture you in my head
and slowly begin to weep
knowing you don't want me dead
hurting myself cuz I'm hurting you
no more smiles i can fake
tried of being so blue
there no more i can take