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i cant get this girl outta my head....its conussing me for matters i dont feel like explaining

so i found my self writing this....i guess i could put here.......for awhile

I'm so confused, I don't know what to do.
I want to, but I don't know if I can.
What if it doesn't work, and we both get hurt?
What will happen?
theses relationships, whats the point?
I feel like I shouldn't be here. Shouldn't have said yes or even ever said Hi
It's annoying me all day long. Will she work with me or will she not?
is she really having feelings for me or is it all fake?
so many questions maybe i should leave or would that hurt more than anything?
I can't leave especially since there are feelings involved,
I don't want people hurt, I should have been more careful.
I learned my lesson, I .... her i can't deny that, but she is too far away. What if someone else comes along?
too many "what ifs."
Worry and what ifs tugging at my mind playing tricks on me. I'm not good enough to sort them all out.
I need a break from it all. soon and very soon i will.
now I understand the pressure of the season, not because i am stressed about all the material things, but the stress on relationships, everyone expecting to give more than they can, to much expecting and not enough giving.
I'm not angry or sad, just confused, but what can put my mind to rest?
Right now I need sleep and this person more than anything.
These are the most real people that I know. No fakes, just real people like me, living day to day, just as confused as me.