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I feel like someone new, Im am my old self..but..I know who I am, I can say it out loud without being afraid, yup I am bisexual, and all those who dont accept it..its not my problem, I am happy the way I am. I was in love with a guy, who I knew would never love me, I tried my best to be noticed..and in the process I lost my true self, but thanks to Darkling Koneko Hime, Kaguna, Ruiko Fumu, and all my friends..Im starting to return to normal and I am very happy about it all. I started drinking...I was becoming an alcoolic and I didnt even realize it, I may still drink, but no..Ive started to stop, Im taking over this part of myself and Im going to turn back to my old loving self! The person I loved, he didnt do anything and I felt pain, It made me sad to know I didnt stand a chance to be with him, and I was jealous of his body, the way it was, I was always comparing myself to him and bringing sadness in my heart, so far...I would have killed myself. Now that I know my true self, I pass next to him and its like if...he doesnt exist in my heart anymore, now I met someone else, he may already have a boyfriend but I like him so much as a friend! We understand eachother, we're the same, I finaly have someone I can talk with, someone IRL who is next to me and is living the same things, I love him for what he is, a friend, and I love everyone who stood next to me when I needed help, I am very grateful to you all, gaia, you save a life wink And now... A new chapter will begin...and new ups and downs, who knows, maybe true love is near?
 Danole · Sat Feb 17, 2007 @ 03:51am · 3 Comments |
