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so...you think Im dead? well, no Im still very much alive, I thought I would die because of this love thing...But because of my friends I made it half way trough, course Im not free... I still love, but...what if everything around me isnt quite as it seems, what if all the world I thought I knew..was an elaborate dream? I look at my reflection...is it all I want to be? No...I want to change now, become somebody else, some of my friends say dont change, we love you the way you are...well, yes, you are all right. I am myself and I am good the way I am, but what if I try to go further? I want to live and find someone to live with me, someone who will hold me tight and that I can kiss and show my affection...someone who isnt fictive, someone who isnt part of a dream someone who is willing to be a part of my life... Im am sick of being alone all the time, I have my close friends to keep me company, but I want more...some may think I am greedy to want more then what I can get, but... I want to have more, I want someone... I feel like I am on the other side of a glass window, I look at the person I want, and that person looks back at me... I touch my hand on the glass and that person touches the glass to, we stare at eachother and smile...but then the glass becomes blurry and I no longer see that person, I walk along the glass window placing my hand on my chest...I lay my back agaisnt the glass window, and on the other side, that person does the same..we both fall on the ground laying against the glass window crying... we cant be together, one loves but the other loves...or maybe that the person doesnt love, its still uncertain...and even if love had a chance, the surrounding people would never accept it, that is why the glass window seperates us...I can look, but I cant touch, nor hug or kiss...for all I can feel...is the cold glass window. Latetly it feels has if the glass window is cracking, but is it?.. I dont know, but if it is cracking...then lets hope what I find on the other side is love.