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This torment will neve abate never will it die...why.... why.... why is it me you torment why am I the one that always falls that always crumbles away at the foundation. These tendrils of darkenss cut deep into my soul destroying all that I am or will ever hope to be. why does betrayal haunt every turn and twist. I'm dieing... falling into an enternal pit from which there is no escape this pit of oblivion. yes oblivion that is its name... I hate you and yet I dont why is there this evil torment always upon me I hate it... I hate you... I hate the world. Why cant it all end and spare me of this torment... end this life of pain. There is no redemtion the very fibers of my soul have been ripped away. I fall to my knees and call out to God. WHY WHY have you done this to me I scream as tears flow down my face. WHY have you placed this upon me. Please God take it away...take it way. God your the only one that can save me.. and yet you seem to flee when I come near. Are you really there? Do you really exist. If you do, do you even care? Am I just some puppet to entertain you with my pain. I hate this life this place these people who laugh at my pain and scoff at me. I hate them with a passion unlike any other...My very soul my very being exist to despise them it seems.