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I don't think that he realizes just how much that I really do love him... Yes, I am distracted by things and I don't talk much... It's not really my fault for how I grew up

As for how much I love him, I'm giving up my dream. I dreamed of going to this great four year college and graduating with top honors as a computer scientist... I'm putting that on hold and watching it go up in flames though as I plan to move out to New York in order to be with him.

I love my family dearly, no matter how they treat me. For him, I will forsake them all even if just to see him once. I don't care if he doesn't love me in return after seeing him. I will give it for just that one moment.

Everyone knows how much I love the moon and the rain... If I'm with him, I could care less if the moon disappeared and the sun shined forever. So long as I am with him.

I'd give up my world and everything inside it for him. He has become my world and I live only for him now. I don't think he realizes just how much difference he has made in my life. My sleep used to be troubled with nightmares but now I dream only of him. The look of indifference fades whenever he calls. There is always a smile and look of happiness to me whenever I get to hear his voice.

But as I said, I don't think he realizes just how much that I love him. He gives me so much but I return so little. Someday, mayhaps soon, he will read this and then maybe he will just be able to scratch the surface of my love for him.

Love, when you read this... Please remember that I love you always and forever, unto eternity.