So it's over. It's just over.
Day's gone. And I have lost my last straw.
No one to talk to, no one to confide in...I've been achingly lonely for weeks and now my support has been yanked from beneath me...and it just hurts more that there is no one I can turn to.
I spoke with him this morning. I was frustrated and then I was angry. I told him I was depressed and about the shrink. I tried to tell him everything, but he wouldn't listen.
Apparently I'm not important enough for him to listen to. And it was all a lie.
I'm angry because I'm trying not to get hurt. It's a self defense mechanism: I've done this before. But it's never hurt so damn much before.
I just want out. I just want out of this entire damn mess which my life has become.
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Cherubino
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Believe it or not, I'm going through the exact same thing. I've been really lonely trying to figure myself out at Knox and then suddenly, Skeller, the only person I was pretty close with got fed up with me and decided to get me kicked out of the dorm. Several huge fights later, Tuesday night, I ended up cutting myself (which I've never sone before) because I was fed up with nobody listening to me, and ended up going to the hospital.
I got help. You should, too.
Right now I'm kind of focusing on finding some way to re-start my life at Knox. I;m staying at my grandparents but I'm checking out a new place Monday. I'm gonna start looking into finding new friends.
Anyway, I don't know how relevant this all is to you, but I'm just here to let you konw you're not alone, even if it is on the internet.