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l'm jelous of a person who can be the center of attenion & that l can't .
jelous that she can get followers & that l can't.
she can discise herself to be something that she not & l can't
no matter how hard l try .
l cannot be anything close to this .
l will never get the things l want in life .
l will never be the person that every 1 would listen to .
l never be the one everyone wants to be or
the one everybody admires.
l am stuck in the crowd
the one behind the crowd ,
in the very back.
l am in the farthest corner from she is .
l will never the one who can be something l want to be or
have the style l've been looking for.
never in my life
will l be this person .
the person who gets what they want when they want it .
will never be the person who gets all customers .
the one everyone likes better.
the one who is better.
one could have that feeling .
so left out of everything happening outside from
were l am traped.
left out in all the exciting things happening .
the reason why l'm the one who is quiet &
the one you are unenterested in .
the one you will never be jealous of.
the one you never think about
this is why l'm so boring &
never does talk
because
l have nothing to talk about .
except for the deep sarrows in my life
you don't care about
you don't think about
you don't see it through my
twitching eyes that flicker
as l constenly smile
on my face which you never see
you don't see anything wrong with my life
you think it's perfect as it is
it's not.
you should never comper yourself
with me .
you don't understand the
things l go through
or the things l deal with
day by day l hide it all
as l go through
what l do
in those long suffering hours
hiding my unnoticeable tears
the you don't see
the inviseable tears that roll down my face
as l cry.
all you see
is a regular personyou walk by
every day
not knowing
not caring
not thinking
about anything related
to that person
in less than 10 seconds
you forget
that l was ever here on earth
& l vanish
within seconds
& l grow into a pain you want to
get away from
l would be dead
& you would never know
& never care even if you knew
l fade away in the darkness
stuck in a world
being ignored
& unwanted .
never will l change.
this is not a poem....